What I really want to do

I know that I should be preparing for my final interview with Big4. But I don't feel like it. I felt that I don't want to be an accountant... Though I wouldn't mind if I could eventually transit to a more financial role in a pharmaceutical company, but I'm not sure how easily this could be done. It's a low risk, average reward path.

So instead I spend hours and hours stalking all these people in biopharma to "research" my career path.
But then, the only option for me to go back to bio is to do lab. And it'll take a few years before I could eventually do what I really wanna do - business development in biotechnology. I wanna do something that involves the science and the business. But there's so many thing that could go wrong. I might really hate lab and blame myself again. I might not get a FAS job afterwards. I might not get into business development afterwards. It's a high risk, high reward path.

I applied to IMS Health and Kantar Health in Shanghai. They haven't replied... yet. But this is also risky. I have to be in mainland China...

So now, my priority now is to do well in the interview on Thursday.

• It's just two days later. I'm going anyways, so I might as well do well. 
• Plus, if I do get an offer I would still have half a year to try other things out, eg lab.

Yes, so focus, Ms Bun! And stop playing with Danbo! FOCUS!!!